So I need to write. To organize my thoughts is something that I do much of, but I really fail at putting them down in a physical format sometimes. Also I almost said alot in that last sentence...which is probably not much of a faux pas but I'm paranoid or something. Elitist most people would probably say.

Anyway here's the deal. There's this girl and...well, let's just say things happened. And then we lived happily ever after and got married and had 3 kids and dog right? Wrong. I was minding my own business last Saturday night just hanging out with my best friend when out of nowhere I had this sudden compelling urge to kiss her. Gross huh? The funny thing is she must have had some sort of similar idea because next thing I know I WAS liplocked with her. I think at this point I should probably warn you that I'm not really a very serious person, and thus I can be fairly self-effacing. Any sense that you might get that I'm making fun of myself in the next paragraph or so is probably pretty close to reality. Weird.

Anyway, so things are fine and dandy ya know? It was a good night, and for once I was the sketch kid, rather than being the kid who made fun of the sketch kid. But apparently life like to have the last laugh, and I was in for an uproar. Next day she says she has to talk to me, and BOOM she's dating this guy, as of 17 hours after we apparently didn't do much of importance. What exactly am I supposed to do in this situation you ask? Well I think that to answer that a reader might need a bit of background info. For one thing she had been interested in this guy for awhile. I knew this and in fact that was one of the main reasons that I hadn't tried to push ahead with any career defining moves the night before. By career defining I mean relationship establishing (get your mind out of the gutter boys). I just figured we would see where things went and hopefully figure it all out. I knew there was a possibility that things might not go my way, but is it really too much to expect her to maybe just give me a tiny sliver of a chance? We met at the beginning of this year and have slowly been building a pretty decent friendship if I do say so myself, second MAYBE only in my short 19 years only to my ex-girlfriend, who now happens to be engaged (irony).

Is it really wrong for my to expect her to at least see how she felt a little bit after the fireworks? I could understand if she waited a week or two and then decided that she wasn't feeling it, and that things had just been a mistake. But 17 hours? Talk about finishing a distant second. The problem with writing all of this out by the way is that I can think it so much faster in my head...haha. I'm already done with the story and considering implications but I still have to finish it all. Let's abbreviate. Long story short I was a little upset but then she was super upset that I wasn't exactly happy and pulls out the "What would I do without you card." SO now I'm here still acting like her best friend (plus a little bit probably but I'm bad at definitions). It's like friends minus any benefits.

The only bright spot that I can see is that I think God is telling me to wait it out. I dunno how that's supposed to work. Not that I doubt Him, it's more that I just doubt myself. Haha, I like that I just typed a short story to myself. I'm hilarious.